...

I actually updated.. :D

2012-01-03T19:25:00.008+08:00

I haven't been posting on this page a lot. Kinda miss a lot of random rants about my boring life, then again, everyone's life is boring anyway, they just have to post it because it's just the way it is. So, anyway, Comic Market 81 just passed. Haven't been able to get there yet now. Planning to go for next year, good stuffs were published.

I have been playing games, lots of shooting games, and a couple of MMORPG.

This is two of my current obsession..

YES, it is a very old game, okay, considering "OLD" it's not really old, lots of people still play it, I just like shooting zombies, and now that the MAYANS have told us that there's will be zombies on January 12 2012, playing this has benefits. NO, I don't take what they say seriously, don't worry :D

My second obsession...

This is just one of the videos, not the gameplay XD

this is the gameplay I love this person, STAR!! my TF2 idol !

YEZ, TF2, another so called "OLD" game, not really old considering so many people still playing this and they still have competitive games going on that I WISH TO ENTER ONE DAY when I'm good enuff. I've been playing this more often than L4D2, sorry, I just like playing games like this. Idk the benefit of playing games, but life without games would be very boring, doesn't matter what game, even a simple game of PUZZLE BOBBLES, it is still a GAME. you can't deny it, sitting, waiting for your friend to finish class or waiting for your colleague to finish meeting, if you have this game on your phone, you'll play. :D but now, since most of the people owns an IPhone, they stick to their IPhone games. I don't own one so I have no idea what do they have in there.

anyway, there's another game I am still playing .. which is Touhou.. D: hisoutensoku.

YEZ, A MORE UPGRADE VER. of Scarlet Weather Rhapsody. :D I'm still bad at it. So bad at it that if you have to rank me, I'll probably disappear into thin air.

ANYHOOO, I've been playing games so much, I forgot that it's already 2012.

SOMETHING HAZ TO CHANGE!

key Rewrite / TAM's first "Game Music" works.

2011-06-25T03:19:00.000+08:00

【まくまく】「F」【マキシマムザホルモン】【makmak】

2011-06-23T00:58:00.001+08:00

【まくまく】「JOINT」【灼眼のシャナ・川田まみ】【makmak】

2011-06-23T00:58:00.000+08:00

smooooch・∀・ × Madoka Magica - madokaaaa◕ ‿‿ ◕

2011-06-22T20:56:00.000+08:00

oh yes, this haz finally come out. o 3 o

箱とねこ８。-A box and Maru 8.-

2011-06-20T01:31:00.000+08:00

【関西の女子達が華麗(笑)に】Techno Break テクノブレイク【踊ってみた】HD

2011-06-20T01:27:00.000+08:00

Creator of this video: EMI.

Original video posted on NicoNicoDouga on June 18, 2011 by EMI. :
http://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm14777622

Dancers in order of appearance:
1. 春柴 http://www.nicovideo.jp/mylist/22510317

2. エリツィン http://www.nicovideo.jp/mylist/8673906

3. Nicol n/a

4. やさい http://www.nicovideo.jp/mylist/18507151

5. aira* http://www.nicovideo.jp/mylist/18061679

6. シヲミ http://www.nicovideo.jp/mylist/11911799

7. EMI. http://www.nicovideo.jp/mylist/17211863

Original Song:
テクノブレイク - らっぷびと feat. タイツォン
http://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm14030713

MADOKA MAGICA connect まど☆マギコネクトViolin+piano+Bass ver.

2011-06-19T01:27:00.000+08:00

Dancing☆Samurai ダン☆サム外伝【あぷ・暴徒・kuu.・けいたん・めろちん】

2011-06-19T01:03:00.000+08:00

皐月　Satsuki

2011-06-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

here's a tribute to my love celeb kitty. KAGONEKO <3

Kyle Hanagami | That's My Attitude

2011-06-15T15:15:00.000+08:00

Dancers:
Candace Brown
Shingo Okamoto
JoJo Gomez
Amanda Grind
Brandon Dumlao

【Touhou】Koishi's Pero Pero Song【東方】

2011-06-14T14:52:00.000+08:00

Can I be your friend?

2011-06-13T20:30:00.000+08:00

you won't wanna be friends with Facebook & Twitter

Sneak Peek of my Album !

2011-06-13T13:02:00.000+08:00

"Hey guys ! My album is coming out June 14th and because I LOVE YU GUYS SO INCREDIBLY MUCH..i wanted to give yu a gewd 20-30 seconds of a sneak peek of all the songs!! I hope yu guys like them ! :D

Keep those song requests coming, by the way :D"

my singing 허각 - 나를 잊지말아요(최고의사랑OST)

2011-06-13T03:56:00.000+08:00

this is EAGURI.. my idol from Korea.

ＢＥＮＩ / 好きだから。（ＳｈｏｒｔＶｅｒ．）

2011-06-08T20:16:00.000+08:00

the rawness of her voice is driving me crazy <3<3

三周年記念合唱『マトリョシカ』

2011-06-08T15:21:00.000+08:00

AUTHOR'S NOTE

2011-06-02T15:31:00.001+08:00

ugh, I don't post anymore, :3 all I do is post up videos which I think worth putting up :3

changed skin .. again. This girl is not really my favorite character, but she's so cute at times D: Her name is Remilia Scarlet .. comes from a Doujin game called Toho or Touhou. watever you may like. I hate describing this game because people are so particular on how to actually describe this game, it's actually a shooting game with 13 series. 3 out of the 13 are normal fighting games. anyway, go google it yerself. if anyone ever ask you what touhou is, just say it's an eroge. XD

I've been stuck at home and watching anime mostly. Quite good show this season, Idk about Summer though. Now, we have The World God Only Knows S2, Nichijou, Kaiji S2, Sket Dance, Denpa Onna to Seishun Otoko, Yondemasu Azazel, Enma-kun, Steins;Gate, Ano Hana, Tiger & Bunny, GOSICK, ... etc etc, so as you can see, I've become quite a hiki. I prefer stay home and watch 2D girls at work. :3

& I think I'm turning super bi ... mostly on the girl side. ... OR JUST BEING PLAIN LESBIAN .. I love 2D girls. YAY 2D ...

【こげ子】Matryoshka マトリョシカ踊ってみた【とテレビ君】

2011-06-02T15:31:00.000+08:00

YOU HAVE TO AGREE WITH ME THAT THIS GIRL MAKES YOU WANNA LEARN THE DANCE. so I shall learn this dance and join whoever is also learning this dance. YOU BE JELLY YO!

まど☆マギ Piano+Violin 生演奏アレンジメドレー＋二次創作イラスト集 Vol.01

2011-06-02T13:41:00.000+08:00

madoca magika piano+violin arrange + illust vol.1
音楽＋イラストは、全て創作です（公式素材ゼロ。全員直接参加）
みんなの、魔法少女まどか☆まぎか愛をひとつの動画にしました

38分に渡るアレンジの第一弾

・イラスト（全三弾に分けて収録。順不同）
35、IRIS、Ｊ村、Kariya、koflif、lain、るご、たま（旧：味噌）、あｚｚ、 RYO、Sky、ねりすけ、ぴん仔、仁藤、希、明、三日月沙羅、BON_

3000、Nuage、成奈、シモシ、さくこ、ni、ガガ、おると、ノヴェル、灰夜、牛、樹人、きゃま、MACCO、真琉樹、ぶーた、ふたかべ、にもし、たまつー、pun2、結城、覺醒、るご、やっか、ゆめしき、唐揚げ、ピスケ、SK、ち　び　ま　る、アカバネ、がり、荻pote、

・楽曲
TAM、小松菜、℃iel、KEIGO KANZAKI、GIN、H.tatuki

・企画の詳細（pixivリンク等有）
http://tamusic.jp/?p=2204

・企画主催、バイオリン、ピアノ、動画製作
TAM（TAMUSIC）
http://twitter.com/TAMUSIC
http://tamusic.jp/

【PV】　ヒャダインのカカカタ☆カタオモイ-C　【ヒャダイン】

2011-06-01T03:37:00.000+08:00

たった今　初めて気づいた
恋に落ちたのだな～
24ｈ　キミ☆　キミ☆　キミ☆
意識せざるをえません！

なんか　（なんか）　いつもと違う
キミと　（二人）　ぎこちない会話
まさか　（両思い）　いや　片思い
やばい！　視線合っちゃった！！！

なになに？！　このドキドキ？！
思考回路　ぐっちゃぐっちゃ　混線・・・
こんなこと　初めてだよ
熱でもあるのかな～

急転直下　いらっしゃった　恋心
あっちゅうま　顔　発火で　まっかっか
バ・バ・・・バカな？！　手が震えるぞ
これが　俗に言う　「恋」　なの？！

やややっちゃった　会話　噛みまくり
気まずい沈黙　マミムメモ
キミの　（キミの）　気持ち　知りたいよ

カカカタ☆カタオモイ

胸がもやもやするよ
食欲　30％　マイナス・・・
なんでだろ　気になるんだ
あらやだ　恋かしら

なんとなく　気になってたけど
お友達だったのに
やっぱやっぱ
そういうことなのね～
一線、超えちゃいます？

ぶっちゃけ　（ぶっちゃけ）
タイプではないっ！
理想　（かなり）　高かったから
だけど　（I dont care!）
関係ないさ
ちょっと　まじで　好きかも・・・

七想八倒　どばっと　恋心
いきなり　世界が　シャングリラ
まままじか？！　こりゃたまらんぞ
胸が　ジュクジュクしてるのだ

妄想　幻想　理想が　大暴走
制御できないよ　ダメ人間？
キミは　（きみは）　どんな気持ちなの？

カカカタ☆カタオモイ

もし付き合えたなら
なんて　呼ぼうかな
あだ名とか　さっぶいかな～

一人で勝手に妄想デ－ト
映画　見ながら　ポップコ－ンっしょ！
にやけちゃう！！

急転直下　いらっしゃった　恋心
あっちゅうま　顔　発火で　まっかっか
バ・バ・・・バカな？！　手が震えるぞ
これが　俗に言う　「恋」　なの？！

やややっちゃった　会話　噛みまくり
気まずい沈黙　マミムメモ
キミの　（キミの）　気持ち　知りたいよ

カカカタ☆カタオモイ

初恋！！　いつもの通学路
ピカピカ光る　　I DO fall in love!
空も飛べそうさ
カカカタ☆カタオモイ

tatta ima hajimete kizuita
koi ni ochita no dana
nijyuuyo jikan KIMI KIMI KIMI
ishiki sezaru o emasen

nanka (nanka) itsumo to chigau
kimi to (futari) gikochinai kaiwa
masaka (ryouomoi) iya kataomoi
yabai shisen acchatta

nani nani kono doki doki
shikoukairo guccha guccha konsen
konna koto hajimete dayo
netsu demo aru no kana

kyuutenchokka irasshatta koigokoro
acchuuma kao hakka de makkakka
BA BA BAKA na te ga furueruzo
kore ga zoku ni iu koi nano

yayayacchatta kaiwa kami makuri
kimazui chinmoku MAMIMUMEMO
KIMI no (KIMI no) kimochi shiritai yo

KAKAKATA KATAOMOI

mune ga moya moya suru yo
shokuyoku 30% MAINASU
nande daro kininarunda
ara yada koi kashira

nantonaku kininatteta kedo
otomodachi datte nano ni
yappa yappa
sou iu koto nano ne
issen koechaimasu

bucchakke (bucchake)
TAIPU dewa nai~
risou (kanari) tatakatta kara
dakedo (I DON'T CARE!)
kankeinai sa
chotto maji de suki kamo

shittenbattou dobatto koigokoro
ikinari sekai ga SHANGURIRA
mamamaji ka?! korya tamaranzo
mune ga JIKUJIKU shiteru no da

mousou gensou risou ga dai bousou
seigyo dekinai yo DAME ningen
KIMI wa (KIMI wa) donna kimochi nano

KAKAKATA KATAOMOI

moshi tsukiaeta nara
nante yobou kana
adana toka sabbui kana

hitori de katte ni mousou DEETO
eiga minagara POPPUKOONsho
iya kechau

kyuutenchokka irasshatta koigokoro
acchuuma kao hakka de makkakka
BA BA BAKA na te ga furueruzo
kore ga zoku ni iu koi nano

yayayacchatta kaiwa kami makuri
kimazui chinmoku MAMIMUMEMO
KIMI no (KIMI no) kimochi shiritai yo

KAKAKATA KATAOMOI

hatsukoi itsumo no tsuugakuro
PIKA PIKA hikaru I DO FALL IN LOVE
sora mo tobesou sa
KAKAKATA KATAOMOI

I realized just now
I fell in love, didn't I?
24 hours a day just you, you, you
I can't get my mind off you!

Somehow you seem different from usual
while having an awkward conversation with you
Could it be mutual love? No, it's one-sided love
Oops! Our eyes met!!!

What is this!? Why is my heart pounding!?
My train of thought is all off-track...
This has never happened to me before
Maybe I have a fever?

My love has taken a sudden turn
In no time my face turned burning red
N-no way! My hands are shaking
Is this this so-called "love"?

I-I managed conversation, but I keep stuttering
Awkward silence *mumble mumble*
I want to know your feelings,
My o-o-one-one-sided love

My chest is feeling funny
My appetite minus 30 percent
Why would that be, I wonder
Oh no, could it be love?

For some reason this has been bugging me for a while
that although we are friends
After all
It's like that, you know?
Where we cross the line of friends?

To be frank,
she's not my type!
I put the bar pretty high after all
But I don't care
It doesn't matter
Gosh, maybe I really am in love

The agony! My love is overflowing
All of a sudden the world is Shangri-la
S-serious? I can't hold this out
My heart is overflowing

Delusions, illusions and ideals run amok
I can't control them! Am I hopeless?
How are YOU feeling?
My o-o-one-one-sided love

If we would be dating,
what should I call her?
Would a nickname be too lame?

On my own I imagine our date
It's gotta be a movie with popcorn!
The idea puts a smile on my face!!

My love has taken a sudden turn
In no time my face turned burning red
N-no way! My hands are shaking
Is this this so-called "love"?

I-I managed conversation, but I keep stuttering
Awkward silence *mumble mumble*
I want to know your feelings,
My o-o-one one-sided love

Puppy love!! The same old road to school
is shining, I DO fall in love
I feel like I could fly
O-o-one-one-sided love

Kyle Hanagami | Save Your Goodbye

2011-05-28T11:23:00.000+08:00

" In the face of adversity, we should not turn our backs on those who need it the most. It's in times like these that dance is truly needed."

Kyle went to teach a class in Japan, Kyle in the center, other dances are from Dancers: S**t Kingz (Tokyo, Japan) (Kazuki, Moto, Shota & Shoji)

【あきら様】スネ夫が自慢話をするときに踊っているダンス【と大人】

2011-05-26T14:05:00.000+08:00

【ファイン＆つるてぃー】Paradichlorobenzene パラジクロロベンゼン

2011-05-25T13:46:00.000+08:00

TAM3-0075 LC:VIOLY / Wind Piano×Violin ver. / Violin:TAM

2011-05-21T13:23:00.000+08:00

【Touhou PV】Double Flutter【東方Mesopota】(FULL ver.)

2011-05-19T09:32:00.000+08:00

【Touhou】Remilia's Sword Dance【東方】

2011-05-12T08:06:00.000+08:00

【Touhou】Koishi's Hide and Seek【東方】

2011-05-12T08:02:00.000+08:00

We Pray For You -55 Youtubers Edition -Japan/ US Tornado Tribute (Origin...

2011-05-11T07:59:00.000+08:00

[PV] Perfume 「レーザービーム」 2011.5.18発売！

2011-05-11T07:52:00.000+08:00

東方 [Piano] Flight of the Bamboo Cutter ~ Lunatic Princess 『2』

2011-05-10T02:37:00.000+08:00

I want to learn this piece, finally something to learn, I've been lazy.

【Touhou Anime】幻想万華鏡~Fantasy Kaleidoscope Trailer【東方】

2011-05-09T08:30:00.001+08:00

【Touhou Anime】幻想万華鏡~Fantasy Kaleidoscope New Video+OP+ED【東方】

2011-05-09T08:30:00.000+08:00

【supercell】　Perfect Day　【Today Is A Beautiful Day】

2011-05-09T05:38:00.000+08:00

魔法少女まどか☆マギカ ED [Magia] MADOKA MAGICA ED Vocal:℃iel+Violin:TAM

2011-05-09T05:37:00.000+08:00

Nichijou 06 - Principal is GAR

2011-05-08T14:11:00.000+08:00

Runbrella (#1 MOTHER'S DAY GIFT!)

2011-05-07T04:43:00.000+08:00

KIDS REACT to Rebecca Black - Friday

2011-05-07T04:13:00.000+08:00

【Touhou PV】Flandre & Vodka "フランとウォッカ"【東方】

2011-05-06T05:35:00.000+08:00

【PV】　ヒャダインのカカカタ☆カタオモイ-C　【ヒャダイン】

2011-05-05T03:59:00.000+08:00

Denpa Onna to Seishun Otoko -Opening- -"Os-Alien"-

2011-05-05T03:56:00.000+08:00

FEMME Gays give the community a bad rep?

2011-05-04T06:58:00.000+08:00

this guy needs a lot of attention. in a good way. he's my role model ~

ハッピーシンセサイザを踊ってみた

2011-05-02T08:05:00.000+08:00

【Touhou】Patchouli in Purring Mode【東方】

2011-05-02T05:32:00.000+08:00

【Touhou】Super Kappa Sisters【東方 baaaaan!!】

2011-05-02T02:22:00.000+08:00

【まくまく】Super Driver 聖地巡礼演奏【涼宮ハルヒの憂鬱】【makmak】

2011-05-01T02:35:00.000+08:00

アイドル好きが止まらない！！～Can't Stop Loving Idols!!～　第1回vol.2

2011-04-29T05:55:00.001+08:00

アイドル好きが止まらない！！～Can't Stop Loving Idols!!～　第1回vol.1

2011-04-29T05:55:00.000+08:00

POKEMON IN REAL LIFE!

2011-04-24T01:52:00.000+08:00

TAM3-0075 LC:VIOLY / demo PV / TAMUSIC 75th ALBUM CD

2011-04-23T08:32:00.000+08:00

I WANT THIS CD!! *prays*

[vocal cover] Love you I do

2011-04-23T07:40:00.000+08:00

東方 [Piano] Night Sakura of Dead Spirits

2011-04-23T07:39:00.000+08:00

Animelo 2009 - Wonder Momoi ～World tour version～

2011-04-20T06:01:00.000+08:00

Animelo 2009 - Kokoro

2011-04-20T05:53:00.000+08:00

Animelo 2009 - Help me, Erin

2011-04-20T05:49:00.001+08:00

Animelo 2008 - Marisa wa Taihen na Mono wo Nusunde Ikimashita

2011-04-20T05:49:00.000+08:00

『If』　歌ってみた　【ENE×feat.TMDC】

2011-04-20T02:52:00.000+08:00

vocal+Violin+illust MADOKA MAGICA mami's battle Theme マミさんの戦闘テーマ

2011-04-19T03:15:00.000+08:00

I'm so overwhelmed by this. THIS IS REALLY REALLY GOOD.

【Touhou 13 OST 3】Rigid Paradise "Miyako's Theme"【東方神霊廟】

2011-04-18T03:16:00.002+08:00

【Touhou 13 OST 2】Youkai Girl at the Gate "Kyouko's Theme"【東方神霊廟】

2011-04-18T03:16:00.001+08:00

【Touhou 13 OST 1】Ghost Lead "Yuyuko's Theme"【東方神霊廟】

2011-04-18T03:16:00.000+08:00

Adele Cover - Someone Like You

2011-04-16T06:07:00.000+08:00

【APH Mix】 Einsamkeit ~ still alive and alone (Hetalia x Mirror's Edge) (...

2011-04-16T04:40:00.000+08:00

Charlie Chaplin Google Doodle

2011-04-16T02:59:00.001+08:00

Charlie Chaplin celebrates his 122nd birthday <3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIR CHARLIE.

Jessie J - Nobody's Perfect

2011-04-15T03:11:00.000+08:00

B'z 09 - 恋心(KOI-GOKORO) [ B'z LIVE-GYM Pleasure 2008 ] ( HD )

2011-04-15T02:27:00.000+08:00

[Basser'S] The Hermit ～夏影～

2011-04-15T00:14:00.000+08:00

初音ミク - モノクロ∞ブルースカイ MMDPV

2011-04-14T02:45:00.000+08:00

ダイジェストDVD告知02

2011-04-14T02:43:00.000+08:00

SUPPORT !~! I LOVE THEM VERY VERY MUCH!

My Chemical Romance - #SINGItForJapan

2011-04-14T02:14:00.000+08:00

Kyle Hanagami | Britney Spears Submission

2011-04-14T02:10:00.000+08:00

2011-04-13T07:03:00.004+08:00

what are the odds that the guy you take interest in takes interest in someone else. what do you do if that happens to you. and that guys happens to be your closest friend. and that someone else is your friend too? do you get depressed and die? do you? do you cry? will he care? no?

so whatever he says, that would accidentally hurt your feeling, you would take it as if his heart changes, as if he would defend whoever but go against you. paranoia? maybe. fact? maybe.

"the girl I increasingly adore as days pass." whooosh that hurts. no name mentioned but you straightaway know who she is.

I'm not longer looked at. I'm no longer have his attention. I no longer have his heart. I no longer have his feeling. I no longer exist.

so what do you do now...? it hurts like hell. wait, what do I know? so what happens now?

she is the one you like and that will forever be the fact, end.

Madoka OP, Connect. This song takes your breath away, LITERALLY.

[MV] FT Island - Satisfaction

2011-04-13T07:00:00.000+08:00

Dave Days "Your Melody" Feat Jake Broido Music Video

2011-04-13T06:34:00.000+08:00

11.03.11 Great earthquake TAM's 5th movie I pray with violin and piano

2011-04-13T06:33:00.000+08:00

GOD IS BACK!

2011-04-12T03:53:00.000+08:00

SHE IS BACK AND ... YES! LOOK AT THOSE EVIL EYES?!

『ミク×リン×レン』　ReAct　『オリジナル曲PV』

2011-04-12T03:06:00.000+08:00

Touhou Anime Kinema-kan - "東方白昼夢" ToHo Daydream(FULL)

2011-04-12T02:47:00.000+08:00

【水樹奈々】 PV 「SCARLET KNIGHT」

2011-04-12T02:32:00.000+08:00

東方 Lotus Land PC-98 Pianoforte Vol.5 【Touhou】

2011-04-11T03:01:00.000+08:00

水樹奈々 SCARLET KNIGHT

2011-04-08T05:51:00.000+08:00

MIZUKI NANA <3 DOG DAYS OP

NPH singing Mr Sandman (Doogie Howser)

2011-04-07T04:36:00.000+08:00

The Unofficial Smithers Love Song

2011-04-07T04:32:00.000+08:00

『マトリョシカ』　合唱　【女性８人】

2011-04-07T02:40:00.000+08:00

Key新作『Rewrite』オープニングムービー

2011-04-06T02:34:00.000+08:00

WATCH!Kid Cudi is my FAVORITE!

2011-04-06T02:30:00.000+08:00

Plastic Tree「Thirteenth Friday」4/6発売ALアンモナイトより（PVフル）

2011-04-06T02:16:00.000+08:00

【GARNiDELiA(とく×MARiA)】ORiON【『&』Track12】

2011-04-05T04:08:00.000+08:00

【DANCEROID】情熱をUpload【花たん×プリコ×ヲタみん×ちょうちょ×転少女】

2011-04-05T03:22:00.000+08:00

【DANCEROID】Jounetsu wo Upload【Hanatan×Puriko×Wotamin×Choucho×Korosuke】
IkuraChan：HanatanSan
Kozue：PurikoSan
Shioshio：ChouchoSan
Ms. Maamu：WotaminSan
Kingu：KorosukeSan

Video from YT
Info source .. from Kozue's English Blog.

2011-04-04T04:53:00.002+08:00

NICHIJOU NICHIJOU NICHIJOU! ~
come and please watch here~! NICHIJOU!

I have read the manga, and waiting for this to come out. hohoho!

【初音ミク】スノートリック【オリジナル曲PV付】

2011-04-04T03:22:00.000+08:00

2011-03-31T05:15:00.003+08:00

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY HEAD. who is this guy? who is he to me? I don't wanna date him, obviously not, he's too good for that. When I told him I love him, he cried, said that he doesn't love me back, and that would hurt my feelings. this is awkward because I don't love him as what girls love their boyfriend. I love him because I love him -______- I SWORE TO NOT USE LOVE, but what the fuck is this.

IT'S 5 AM IN THE MORNING and I'm having these confusing thing going on. ahhh geez.

2011-03-28T02:33:00.003+08:00

have you ever had to tell someone that you don't need their help? and they insists on being the hero and tries to help everyone? while he can't even help himself? delusional much? what is life? a drama?

\\

at this moment of my life, I cannot, take anyone who has too much to say. who literally explain to me about anything. because I don't want to know at this moment. I can't take information. my head hurts.

-.-'''

2011-03-24T03:48:00.002+08:00

come to think of it, I really have no mood to do anything. I feel like shit. No, seriously. that guy is in serious deep shit. if he pisses me off once more, I'll make sure he'll die. I swear.

is it time of the month? where i get really angry and pissed?

2011-03-24T03:33:00.000+08:00

D: I SHALL NEVER GO ON A LADIES NIGHT. BOOOOOOOORING.

...

2011-03-23T03:08:00.003+08:00

doesn't mean I do all fun shizz, I'm cheap. I'm not havoc, or whatever you call it. Don't you ever assume. Yes, this is real world. people try to trick you to getting into your pants but no, I'M SO NOT INTERESTED.

it was once said "i feel sad for her because she has so many guy friends but she has no love." to a person who i had feelings against. my friends told me that about her, but when she finally had a boyfriend.. it was my best friend. they were a good pair. I was hysterical of course and my best friend ignored me and now we are no longer friends.

I shed tears like a crazy mad woman. for more than 4 months, I cried till I can't cry no more and I still cry. every little thing is sad.. then I got back to my feet, decided it's no use crying cause it won't make anything better.

I'm not an ideal woman. I hop. I want to have fun. I don't like to be tied down, but at the end of the day, I'll be alone. No love. No special friends. I'm young. I JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN. 21 and being tied down is not an ideal life.

I stood by my principles. I stood for what I believe in. I do believe in love but I just don't believe how love can be felt so easily for people. how people can easily say I Love You. that does not exist for me. so I gave up any idea of love.

when I finally.. said I love someone, I don't fear rejection, but I fear whether is it real? and what I got was "I'm not worth your love." and tears falling for me because of the feeling regret that I love him and him hurting me. I don't care anymore how many times I get hurt, I don't care because I've decided it was him I would love. I may sound naive now, but this is how I feel.

he wants to go away because he hurt my feelings but... even if he go away, it won't make anything better. I will still get hurt and I don't even know I can go thru that again. I don't want him to go away. it's such an awful feeling to lose him. everytime he talks about her, I would feel such pain but I had to brush aside these silly feelings. everytime. so I can see him smile.

I want to feel happy. being loved and love back. I'm not happy right now.
- right now, I just wanna die - so can you please save me?

2011-03-21T03:40:00.002+08:00

why won't you help me understand? why won't you just agree for the sake of how I'm feeling now? I just want to rant. I know you are helping, but can you just please don't make it sound I'm wrong all the time. I feel so... stupid.

help me please.

2011-03-20T16:41:00.004+08:00

my leg hurts. D: more like my muscles. finally went to club again for a very long time. and of course I still own the floor. zouk still sucks. I just wish they fire the dj. phuture is awesome, that's where the party is. nice upbeat songs, those new released. Angel kept saying I hop guys and I can disappear real fast. LOL. I get bored, so yeah. you might think I'm a bitch, but it's a club, there's nothing serious. I don't pick up guys either.

I get more and more bored of BLOGGING.
I'm sorry. I don't mean to hurt your feelings. Last thing I wanna do is that, but if you don't wanna let me know how am I gonna feel at ease that you're fine even you claim to be fine. Maybe one day I will disappear from your sight. You can go back to him if you want to. He knows you better than I do and he can make you feel better than I do. So, go.

anyway, before I go, something to learn from Brittany.

"now is not the time to have steady. now is the time to have fun, be free from commitment, because when the time comes for you to do that, you might feel such a burden that you never feel so free before. now you are still young, be a free spirit, love if you want, it's not wrong, but live life freely when you still have it."

2011-03-19T14:06:00.002+08:00

http://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm13713624
very nice.

hmn, dressing to go out soon. May I reach there at 4pm. I'm so lazy to take the train, so I'm gonna bus my way up there. I'm left with 20 bucks. I'm sad.

2011-03-19T02:19:00.003+08:00

my head hurts. every time I get home, I get so tired, I actually have no idea what to do. I personally think that my typing speed is fucking fast. LOL BOAST.

i finally cried my ass off.. kay not my ass off, but cried till my heart content, to him. yet I feel so pathetic to cry in front of him. I'm suppose to be the strong one. I told him every thing that is in my head, everything meant everything, and I felt pathetic for that. he's my best friend, and will always be my best friend. I feel kinda sad though, but I'm not asking for anything. I just want to be happy as the way it is.

D: my house is so messy, I swear I'm gonna die cleaning it up. KAY, not the entire house, just the room, currently being filled with my things at every corner at this very moment. things I have to pack in a box. talking about box, I need to buy more D:

ehhhhh, I'M SO RANTING sheesh.

...

I actually updated.. :D

key Rewrite / TAM's first "Game Music" works.

【まくまく】「F」【マキシマムザホルモン 】【makmak】

【まくまく】「JOINT」【灼眼のシャナ・川田まみ 】【makmak】

smooooch・∀・ × Madoka Magica - madokaaaa◕ ‿‿ ◕

箱とねこ８。-A box and Maru 8.-

【関西の女子達が華麗(笑)に】Techno Break テクノブレイク【踊ってみた】HD

MADOKA MAGICA connect まど☆マギ コネクトViolin+piano+Bass ver.

Dancing☆Samurai ダン☆サム外伝【あぷ・暴徒・kuu.・けいたん・めろちん】

皐月 Satsuki

Kyle Hanagami | That's My Attitude

【Touhou】Koishi's Pero Pero Song【東方】

Can I be your friend?

Sneak Peek of my Album !

my singing 허각 - 나를 잊지말아요(최고의사랑OST)

ＢＥＮＩ / 好きだから。（Ｓｈｏｒｔ Ｖｅｒ．）

三周年記念合唱『マトリョシカ』

AUTHOR'S NOTE

【こげ子】Matryoshka マトリョシカ 踊ってみた【とテレビ君】

まど☆マギ Piano+Violin 生演奏アレンジメドレー＋二次創作イラスト集 Vol.01

【PV】 ヒャダインのカカカタ☆カタオモイ-C 【ヒャダイン】

Kyle Hanagami | Save Your Goodbye

" In the face of adversity, we should not turn our backs on those who need it the most. It's in times like these that dance is truly needed."

Kyle went to teach a class in Japan, Kyle in the center, other dances are from Dancers: S**t Kingz (Tokyo, Japan) (Kazuki, Moto, Shota & Shoji)

【あきら様】スネ夫が自慢話をするときに踊っているダンス【と大人】

【ファイン＆つるてぃー】Paradichlorobenzene パラジクロロベンゼン

TAM3-0075 LC:VIOLY / Wind Piano×Violin ver. / Violin:TAM

【Touhou PV】Double Flutter【東方Mesopota】(FULL ver.)

【Touhou】Remilia's Sword Dance【東方】

【Touhou】Koishi's Hide and Seek【東方】

We Pray For You -55 Youtubers Edition -Japan/ US Tornado Tribute (Origin...

[PV] Perfume 「レーザービーム」 2011.5.18発売！

東方 [Piano] Flight of the Bamboo Cutter ~ Lunatic Princess 『2』

【Touhou Anime】幻想万華鏡~Fantasy Kaleidoscope Trailer【東方】

【Touhou Anime】幻想万華鏡~Fantasy Kaleidoscope New Video+OP+ED【東方】

【supercell】 Perfect Day 【Today Is A Beautiful Day】

魔法少女まどか☆マギカ ED [Magia] MADOKA MAGICA ED Vocal:℃iel+Violin:TAM

Nichijou 06 - Principal is GAR

Runbrella (#1 MOTHER'S DAY GIFT!)

KIDS REACT to Rebecca Black - Friday

【Touhou PV】Flandre & Vodka "フランとウォッカ"【東方】

【PV】 ヒャダインのカカカタ☆カタオモイ-C 【ヒャダイン】

Denpa Onna to Seishun Otoko -Opening- -"Os-Alien"-

FEMME Gays give the community a bad rep?

ハッピーシンセサイザを踊ってみた

【Touhou】Patchouli in Purring Mode【東方】

【Touhou】Super Kappa Sisters【東方 baaaaan!!】

【まくまく】Super Driver 聖地巡礼演奏【涼宮ハルヒの憂鬱】【makmak】

アイドル好きが止まらない！！～Can't Stop Loving Idols!!～ 第1回vol.2

アイドル好きが止まらない！！～Can't Stop Loving Idols!!～ 第1回vol.1

POKEMON IN REAL LIFE!

TAM3-0075 LC:VIOLY / demo PV / TAMUSIC 75th ALBUM CD

[vocal cover] Love you I do

東方 [Piano] Night Sakura of Dead Spirits

Animelo 2009 - Wonder Momoi ～World tour version～

Animelo 2009 - Kokoro

Animelo 2009 - Help me, Erin

Animelo 2008 - Marisa wa Taihen na Mono wo Nusunde Ikimashita

『If』 歌ってみた 【ENE×feat.TMDC】

vocal+Violin+illust MADOKA MAGICA mami's battle Theme マミさんの戦闘テーマ

【Touhou 13 OST 3】Rigid Paradise "Miyako's Theme"【東方神霊廟】

【Touhou 13 OST 2】Youkai Girl at the Gate "Kyouko's Theme"【東方神霊廟】

【Touhou 13 OST 1】Ghost Lead "Yuyuko's Theme"【東方神霊廟】

Adele Cover - Someone Like You

【APH Mix】 Einsamkeit ~ still alive and alone (Hetalia x Mirror's Edge) (...

Charlie Chaplin Google Doodle

Jessie J - Nobody's Perfect

B'z 09 - 恋心(KOI-GOKORO) [ B'z LIVE-GYM Pleasure 2008 ] ( HD )

[Basser'S] The Hermit ～夏影～

初音ミク - モノクロ∞ブルースカイ MMDPV

ダイジェストDVD告知02

My Chemical Romance - #SINGItForJapan

Kyle Hanagami | Britney Spears Submission

[MV] FT Island - Satisfaction

Dave Days "Your Melody" Feat Jake Broido Music Video

11.03.11 Great earthquake TAM's 5th movie I pray with violin and piano

GOD IS BACK!

『ミク×リン×レン』 ReAct 『オリジナル曲PV』

Touhou Anime Kinema-kan - "東方白昼夢" ToHo Daydream(FULL)

【まくまく】「F」【マキシマムザホルモン】【makmak】

【まくまく】「JOINT」【灼眼のシャナ・川田まみ】【makmak】

MADOKA MAGICA connect まど☆マギコネクトViolin+piano+Bass ver.

皐月　Satsuki

ＢＥＮＩ / 好きだから。（ＳｈｏｒｔＶｅｒ．）

【こげ子】Matryoshka マトリョシカ踊ってみた【とテレビ君】

【PV】　ヒャダインのカカカタ☆カタオモイ-C　【ヒャダイン】

【supercell】　Perfect Day　【Today Is A Beautiful Day】

【PV】　ヒャダインのカカカタ☆カタオモイ-C　【ヒャダイン】

アイドル好きが止まらない！！～Can't Stop Loving Idols!!～　第1回vol.2

アイドル好きが止まらない！！～Can't Stop Loving Idols!!～　第1回vol.1

『If』　歌ってみた　【ENE×feat.TMDC】

『ミク×リン×レン』　ReAct　『オリジナル曲PV』

『マトリョシカ』　合唱　【女性８人】